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Heiss. its me again. so aneways; i have'nt been able to post up here for two days? or meaby three? whatever. aneways; thats because my computer was in an operation. its okay now; i guess. but the FREAKING thing is; i cant use Chinese words in this computer now. Cause the FUCKING computer does'nt understand. i have to install some kinda file &insert some kinda disc and yadadada. i dont get that CRAP. so im just gonna leave it as it is yeah. sozz; Chelsea took on Bolton last Wednesday. &it was amazing; so i've heard. yes; i did'nt get to watch it. because ASTRO was'nt airing in. FUCK IT. I mean i would'nt mind NOT watching that much IF; the guy that i simply LOVE &ADORE did'nt score. if you get what i mean yeah? Yes. Ballack scored the WINNING header. muaxx &MUAXXX. Gosh; i can't believe it. Among the four goals he scored for Chelsea; three of them were headers &they were mostly made by Lampard or Robben. MUAXXX. luv erms. hehe. well; meaby that BLACK CLOUD has disappeared already? and meaby its on Shevchenko now? When i read that Jose Mourinho was buying Valencia's David Villa to replace Sheva. i was SO heartbroken. i mean; i just LOVE Sheva. he's so CUTE. &AMAZINGLY talented. drool. wayss; i just checked the news on Chelsea urm like an hour ago. it said that Sheva will not go back to AC Milan &wishes to stay with Chelsea. well; im blur now. the newspaper ALSO stated that Sheva would be on loan or 6 months for any club in Spain as his wife is having trouble settling in; in England. haizz. it takes time for one to get used to ones surrounding. meaby; Sheva is'nt yet? The AC Milan president quoted "Sheva needs the team built AROUND him &blablabla"~ thats what he said. if i remembered correctly. i dont REALLY get what it means though. i mean; is'nt football about TEAMWORK too? not just being built around ONE player right? hmm; i dunno. Jose Mourinho said that his team will be TOP soon. but when is that? Manchester United never seem to loose a FUCKING game. how are they gonna be 1st then? if im not wrong; i remember reading that Chelsea were 15 or 17 points ahead of Manchester United last year. whoah. &that they were already far away from ManUnited, Liverpool, Arsenal BEFORE Christmas. well; Christmas is coming soon. &they are in a very 'unfamiliar' postition now. chasing other teams instead of being chased after. haizz. hopefully they'll kill OFF Arsenal's title dreams by beating them next week. muaxx. they MUST win that match. if they don't; they will be behind ManUnited by like 6points. &FUCK i cant take that. sozz; my whole diet routine would've been perfect if I have'nt let two days SLIP. yeah; for like two days i've not been going with my diet routine. FUCK. but; i FUCKING obeying it now. i guess. hope i can last till School reopens. sozz; im just gonna blog TILL here yeah. muaxx &CIAO.

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{9:44 PM}

heiis. its me again. so since you see me posting up here just a day after yesterdays showdown, it means Chelsea did'nt loose. but; they did'nt win either. so yeah; its a draw. i guess a draw is better than Manchester United having a sixpoint gap between Chelsea right? haizz. wayss. it was a 1-1 draw for those of you who did'nt watch it. it was so intense; in a really nervous kinda way. sozz; ManUnited took the lead right before halftime. &i really thought it would'nt have been like that IF Carlo Cudicini would have actually TRIED to save that goal. he was actually using Richardo Carvalho body as the shield. if you get what i mean. yeah so aneways the goal was scored by Louis Saha. yeah; the guy who missed the penalty during ManUnited's Champions League match against Celtic. yeah that guy. wayss; Manchester United were the better team during the first half. &i just CANT lie about that. Chelsea was well; i dunno.. .sorta missing. but Chelsea was the BETTER team during the second half. like i thought before halftime. i knew that Jose Mourinho would give Chelsea a 'pep-talk'. &he did. wayss; he said that they were doing nothing to win. OUCH. &that only two or three of his players were working their ass off. okay meaby he did'nt say ass. but; you know what i mean right? Chelsea were working really hard during the second half. &as a reward; Richardo Carvalho header sealed the match to a draw. Chelsea really need to play like that more often. no i dont mean do nothing to win of course. hell no. but; play like they did during the second half of the match. haizz. so the Black cloud that has been floating above Ballack has NOT disappeared yet. sobb.. .during the opening 5 minutes of the game; he sorta rewarded ManUnited two freekicks. yeah; i was really nervous. REALLY. but i guess he played better during the second half. he delivered a few crosses beautifully. muaxx. i did'nt see the part where the players had to shake hands with the other teams players. i would've love to watch that part. whenever Christiano Ronaldo's foot touched the ball i felt like ringing his neck. he's such an idiot. he's.. .he's a FRICKLE bastard. okay meaby that does'nt really make sense. wayss; i spent almost the whole afternoon reading profiles of football players on wikepedia. &it was SO interesting. like really. during a ManUnited defeat to Arsenal sometime 2002/03, Sir Ass Ferguson kicked a football boot that struck beckham over the eye causing a cut that needed stitches. The incident led to a great deal of transfer speculation involving Beckham, with bookmarkers offering odds on whether he or Ferguson would be first to leave the club. in the end of course; everyone knows. Beckham was the one leaving to Real Madrid. &Ass Ferguson is still manager of ManUnited. there was a book published by Michael Crick but i wondered why it was posted up on Beckhams profile though. did Beckham have anything to do with the book? hmm .. .wayss; it was titled ' The Boss- the many sides of Sir Alex Ferguson ' . it was published in the year, 2003. the same year Ferguson and Beckham had an incident. so; i wonder if that incident was in the book. he wasnt the ONLY player i was reading about though. i read about Jens Lehman, Juergen Klinsman, Oliver Khan &more.. more. sozz; the past few months i've been promising myself to go on a diet. but that day has'nt come. the most i would actually starve myself for two days. but i would'nt last the next day. each day i promise myself ' i will starve myself starting from tomorrow' &when tomorrow comes, okay at first im strong i manage to hold up. but i get weaker &weaker. that i find myself eating. Urgh. i really dunno what to do. FUCK IT. Gosh; if i ever want to be with a hottie in a world like this, i really need to push myself. argh. sozz; i'll stop writting now. ciaoss &muaxx-

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{5:05 AM}

dear sweet innocent diary. okay; am i being wierd or what?? okay yeah a little. i've been looking at my clock for god knows how many times already. im really REALLY nervous. the showdown between ManUnited &Chelsea is creeping nearer &NEARER. the newspaper stated that Ballack &Drogba would be fit to play tonight. hopefully none of Chelsea's players will get injured OR sent off. i really CANT bare to watch it happen. the favourites tonight to win the match are Manchester United. i cant say who will win though. But, i kinda get the feeling Chelsea will win. i dunno; theres just that feeling. if Chelsea loose tonight; this will be the first time they are chasing other teams to win the title instead of being chased after for the title. i still cant believe what that fucking Christiano Ronaldo said. he even denied saying it later saying he respects Chelsea very much. like what the FUCK? you really did'nt sound like you respected them when you were talking about them. sounded like you hated them. FUCK YOU. No offence to the ManUnited fan again but; ManUnited are acting really bigheaded if you know what i mean. do the talking on the pitch. i wonder what the headlines would be if ManUnited won. would it be 'Fuck you Chelsea'. nahh. can't be. Chelsea need to win this. not just for the sake of thier third Premierssip title. but also for the sake of thier face. i mean; can you imagine what ManUnited would say if they won the match. they'd be taunting Chelsea forever. haizz. i realized something sometime ago; the summer holidays are'nt really long actually its just 6 weeks without seeing your friends. 42days ain't much you know? yet; i dunno why people change SO MUCH in just 42days. okay i better stop before i sound like a grandma. wayss; yesterday my computer was like TOTALLY hit by a virus. when i was chatting on Windows live Messanger, someone suddenly sent me an IM. it said; "Is that you? www.modelpicture.com/blablablasomethinghellwhatwashereidunremember " out of curiousity; i clicked it. and my computer went like numb. i mean; i could move my mouse but i could'nt actually cick anything. and like after 10 or 15 seconds; a pop-up popped up and told me 'Mcblamedia has succesfully been instaled to your computer and just pop-out after that' and after that; everyone on my Messanger sent me the same message asking 'is that you? http://www.blablabla/. =P'. eventhough it was just a computer; it REALLY scared me. like what the fuck? Fuckit. a guy came over to fix my computer. so far; ntohing funny is wrong. yet. but; i have'nt signed onto my Messanger since then. &i dont plan to ANYTIME soon. I even requested that my Windows live Messanger to get deleted. Since i could'nt delete it. well; i wont say ' could'nt ' but, instead i'll say; my FUCKING computer would'nt let me. yes; it did'nt let me delete it. yupp. wierd much? when i tried to delete it, it cancelled the whole operation itself. FUCK IT. God; was it like so Frightened. aneways; i think i've wrote enough for now. So; if i come online &write here tomorrow, it means Chelsea won. If i dont write here for god knows how many days, it will mean i'm going through depression. so; goodluck to Chelsea. i'll be praying LONG &HARD for you. give it all you've got &put ManUnited in their place. muaxx. &i hope Ballack will do great tonight. hopefully that black cloud has finnaly disappeared. so ciao &muaxx.

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{4:49 AM}

heys. me again. well; this is the first time for quite some time i've up here twodays straight. my computers connection sucks. HELL it does. wayss; the match of the century. yes; Manchester United vs Chelsea is creeping near ever quickly. &the war of the WORDS have already started &yes it includes MINDgames. but the ones that are firing all these attacks are coming from ManUnited. Fergie started the mind games by saying; Sundays showdown will need a STRONG Referree. FUCKit. &the words that have been attacking the Chelsea players were fired FROM; Christiano Ronaldo. Fuck; i was furious when i read what he said in an interview. like WHATTHEFUCK. he said Chelsea would STOP getting good results if Jose Mourinho would leave Stamford Brige. well heres my REPLY to that; that is NOT TRUE. they would still be great. Sure once &a while Mourinho give them a PUSH or too. But if he really did leave; they will still have GOOD Results. I dunno what that bloody Ronaldos talking about. thenhe said; Chelsea buying Shevchenko &Ballack has'nt made any difference despite thier pricey tags. Cause the team were the same as they were before. like; FUCK HIM you know. so heres my REPLY; Ballack and Shevchenko have made some difference. Shevchenko have. but Ballack have not Settled in properly yet. But it does'nt give him any RIGHT top launch FUCK attacks on them. He must still be sour after Germant beat his team in the Third Place Play-Off. Dont go sour on Ballack Ronaldo. it wasnt him who scored the hat trick tha tknoched you off to fourth place. it was Schweini. muaxx; Schweinsteiger. No offence to ManUnited fans though. But; he launching SHITTY attacks on my team. ManUnited are acting as though they already won the match. ASSHOLES. like; hello. the match's on SUNDAY. don't get your head all big. wayss; this morning when i logged on to the net like always. the first thing i did was; check for update on Chelsea. like ALWAYS. and guess what the headlines were? "Christiano denies criticising Chelsea"~ What the FUCK. i dont believe it. like; FUCK i so dont. i bet he's just covering up the mess he made. Just like he did during the World Cup Semi-Finals when he got Rooney sent off. again; FUCK it. after the World Cup; he claimed he was'nt trying to get Rooney sent off. WHATTHEFUCK; again. if you were'nt trying to get Rooney sent off; what were you doing crowding around the referree. wayss; The allegation made by Ronaldo; has left Chelsea's players bristling ahead of Sunday's key Barclays Premiership clash with United at Old Trafford, midfielder Frank Lampard defending the pair before declaring the Londoners will 'do their talking on the pitch'. hugs&KISSES to Lampard. again; you have'nt won the match ManUnited. Do your talking ON THE PITCH. Still; i cant say who will win. But every loss Chelsea ever receieved has ALWAYS inspired them to win the next game they're playing. I REALLY HOPE they win. ManUnited need to be put into thier Place &taught a lesson about using thier words carefully. i dunno if Drogba or Ballack will be fit for the Sunday Clash. i really hope they will be. So Far; Chelsea have not launched any attack on ManUnited. and i hope they wont anytime BEFORE Sundays Clash. I really dont want to see them EAT THEIR WORDS if they lost. haizz. FUCK THIS. Chelsea need to win this. I'll be praying LONG &HARD. muaxx; LUCK Chelsea. After Chelseas clash with ManUnited at Old Trafford, they will be hosting Arsenal at Stamford Bridge they week after. well; that would be interesting. wayss; i'll surely update tomorrow. but for now; muaxx &I WISH ALL MY LUCK to Chelsea.

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{9:35 PM}

whoah. its been such a long time since i've written here. likeREALLYlong. andyeah; i know i said i would write here EVERYDAY of my summerholidays. but; i've been tied up to soMANY things. not studies ofcourse. the stressFACTOR is over. thats for sure. ive been tied up to well, the computer games. forinstance; theSIMS &Runescape. yeah. im addicted to them. Basically; i just sit on my chair from 10a.m too 5p.m then; i continue at 8p.m to 11p.m. and it goes on&ON the next day. so you can calculate how long I spend on the computer eachday. Unhealthy; yeah i so know that. atfirst i was'nt used to it. since; i gave up using the computer for months during my School year. I would only like comeONLINE for like onceAmonth. so; i kinda got used to it. and playing the computer nonSTOP now; feels really wierd. &Holidays would'nt be holidays if; i couldn't stayup allNIGHT to watch soccer right. &having stressed out about my Exams bystudying nonSTOP; it really did payOFF. im still in the topClass of the 8thgrade. thankGOD. Soz; toSOCCER. manUnited host Champions; Chelsea at OldTrafford this Sunday. yes; iknow. just thinkingOF it makes me shivver. imNOTgonna miss it. Matches like that; DONT come everyday. iCANTreally say who will win though. imean with Rooney back in his amazing form; ManUnited seem unSTOPPABLE. but; Chelsea. idunno. i guess. [continued] Chelsea are lacking something ManUnited have. i just can't seem to figure it out. aneways. i have'nt updated about Chelseas recent matches. so; im just gonna write them down shortly. few weeks ago, Chelsea took on Aston Villains for thier Leaguecup match. asyouknow; the Villains managed to hold Chelsea 1-1 during thier EPL match a month ago i think. meaby. So; Chelsea got revenged when they trashed them 4-0. like; Oh my God. i could'nt stop smilling when i read the headlines. a week before that; tottenham fuckspur took on Chelsea. Makelele had put them in the lead in the 15th minute. but after a shocking goal by tottenham leveled the score to half time. it would've stayed that way IF; Aaron Lenon did'nt score the second goal. argh. So; Chelsea have lost two matches this season. The week after that; they crushed Watford with another 4-0. muaxx. during that match; Chelsea were amazing. they were the Chelsea everyone knew last season. they were in thier TOPFORM. the week AFTER that; WestHam United hosted Chelsea. Chelsea played amazingly. but they only managed to get a goal. thanks to Geremis freeKICK. Ballack was'nt in that match though. sobb. i guess he was too tired. aneways; about Ballack. lately; he has'nt been having a good time. a few weeks ago; he admitted that he was struggling with Chelsea's demands &said he needed a break. haizz. i really dont know what to say though. Ballack is no doubt an amazing player with buckets of talents. but; i have'nt really seen him in this BEST at Chelsea. you look at him when he plays for his country. yes; amazing right &he manages to score. then you look at him in Bayern. he was Bayerns key player &now that he's not at Bayern anymore; Bayern seem to be lacking something. Ballack helped Bayern win the Champions League &Bundesliga cup MANYtimes. and loosing him; is a really BIGBLOW to Bayern. Ballack was such an influence to Bayern Munich & now that he's gone; Bayern are struggling. then at last; you look at him when he plays for Chelsea. You see a worldCLASS football player; who led Germany to the WorldCup semi-finals. But; he just is'nt at his best. meaby; he's just struggling with Chelsea's demands. Or; he's just slow on getting used to how England plays thier football. Or meaby; just MEABY. he's lost. yes; it does seem he is a little bit. Former German Star; Bern Schuster; has HIGHLIGHTED Ballack's mistake by joining Chelsea. He says; "Ballack was wrong with his choice, he is lost at Chelsea. Michael would have suited much better to Real Madrid, where he’d be the ideal hover in front of the defence." and as much as i LOVE Ballack; i have to admit. Schuster is right. he is LOST. meaby; he just needs some time i guess. To make things EVEN worse for Ballack; Jose Mourinho added insult to Ballack's injury last night where Chelsea lost 1-0 to Werder Bremen but are still THROUGH to the last 16. Mourinho said that he expected more from the player he signed from Bayern Munich at the end of the season. "I don't think Ballack played a good game," Mourinho told a news conference. "Sorry, but sometimes that happens. It's not a problem, he just didn't play a good game." ~im sad of course; for Ballack. Cause there seems to be a black cloud above him right now. sobb. Ballack was also booed of the field when he had to go off with a gashed calf in the 77th minute at the Weserstadion. sobb. Television pictures showed his calf was red and bloody at the end of the game; ohmygod. i feel really for Ballack. i really hope he gets better soon. and i hope that the black ckoud that has been hovering above Ballack will dissappear soon. But most of all; I hope everyone will see the REAL Michael Ballack soon. theWORLDCLASSfootballer that he really is.

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{9:35 PM}

Heiis. me again. whoah; its been such along time since ive blogged on here. i was really busy during the hols. well actually not busy; but actually playing Runescape. its really fun. aneways; Chelsea took on Sheffield United last Saturday. &Chelsea won ofcourse. muaxx. who scored; muaxx. well lets see; there was Lampard &then there was BALLACK. OhmiiGodd. his 2nd Premiere League Goal. muaxx. luvhim. though; Sheffield United did have lots of chances to score. but; Chelsea had more ofcourse. On the same day; Manchester United slammed Bolton by 4-0. Wayne Rooneys goal drought ended that day when he scored a hat trick for United. godd. Rooneys amazing. gossh. &i can assure you; he's just getting warmed up. there will be more to come from him. thrustmii. The next day however; my jaw dropped EVEN lower. yes; when Liverpool beat Aston Villa by 3-0. Fuckitt. like really Fuckitt. imean; Chelsea could'nt beat them. but Liverpool did. fuckkiitt. fuckkitt. wayss. Barca hosted Chelsea in NouCamp ontuesday. although Chelsea did'nt win the game. they still drew the game. muaxx. thanxx to Lampard &Drogba. it was so intense. wow. there were altogether 10 yellow card given in that game. godd. Barcelona are Cheaters. and im not just saying that. i really mean it. iswear to god. Fuckit. they are Cheaters. That night the biggers Cheater was Deco. yes; he may be drop dead gorgeous. but; a cheater is a cheater. He fell tothe ground in pain when John Terry 'pushed' him. the next second; he jumps up &confronts Terry. like what the fuck. did a miracle happen &he suddenly realized that he wasnt in pain anymore. Fuck him. i hope they get knocked out of the Champion League. they dont deserve to be in it. wayss. Gerrard ended his gaol drought with a goal against Bordeaux. im happy he's back in his form. wayss; im kinda sleepy now. but i'll update soon yeah. really tired. did'nt get any sleep last night. sozz; im gonna go teake a nice LONG nap. muaxx-

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{9:50 PM}

heiss. me again. sorry i have'nt updated for two days. i've been REALLY sad these few days. and the reason seems to be making me sad on &OFF. as in; sometimes it strikes me really hard &sometimes i think about it; but i dont get all MOPY. i was sad about something that has been haunting me since that horrible day in July. yes. When the Germans were beaten by the Italians. Germany vs. Italy. i know its kinda stupid to cry about something like that. ive been watching videos of Germany in the World cup. &its so sad. like as time went by; thier confidence &belief of winning the World Cup grew even stronger. sometimes i think that if they held on for another 2minutes; the match would've gone to a Penalty Shootout. i will always HATE Italy. and ya'll might say im overeacting. but; no. im not. they did'nt deserve to win. i have'nt eaten spaggetti since that day. well to be exact; i have'nt had italian food since that day. These past few days; i've been watching a video over &OVER again. its called; Bad times for Germany. its SO sad. and the song goes so well with it. i really dont know what to write up here. aiizz. Blackburn took on Chelsea for the third round of the Carling Cup. and Chelsea WON by two. yayss. thanks to Joe Cole &Kalou. i cant wait for the Chelsea vs. Sheffield United match this Saturday. muaxx. not missing it. sozz. this post will be short i guess. im not really in the mood. sozz; update tomorrow. IF i have the mood to. muaxx-

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{12:41 AM}

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